Since I've been having all the health problems the doctors have been shoving one pill at me or another. I've been on rounds of steroids, vitamins, pain pills, muscle relaxers, anti-inflamtories...it's getting to be a bit ridiculous.
Either I can't sleep at all and feel woozy, like tonight, or I fall asleep for hours at a time, losing track of days. My stomach no longer knows if it's coming or going and honestly I can't tell if the pain I'm feeling anymore is coming from the actual health issues or the fact that I'm intermittently taking medications that you aren't supposed to go off of cold turkey. Hell, is what I'm feeling even related to Edema? Am I feeling a thousand side effects that are causing all the nausea, heart burn, stomach upsets, sleeplessness, drowsiness, and the inability to feel cool? I'm having hot flashes for Pete's sake and I'm only 29 years old.
There has to come a time where I say no more and put down the pill bottle. They aren't making me any better and to tell you the truth I'm moody and depressed on them as well. This isn't the way I want to live my life. This is DEFINITELY not the way I like feeling.
I just felt the need to vent, maybe now when I lay down my brain will shut down and I can finally get some sleep.
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