I recently finished Blue Eyed Devil by Lisa Kleypas and had to take a step back and re-evaluate all my past relationships. I noticed a pattern. Most of the men I have dated or been involved with show some signs of either deep manipulation and mental abuse. I was shocked. I was scared. I honestly didn't know that something in me attracted people like that.
Is it me personally or all relationships somewhat manipulative? I will admit that it is disconcerting. To know that when you are discussing something with someone that happened in the past their memories are so much more different then yours, that when you say you had fun, they stop you and say oh remember that guy was looking at you because you were fat? I mean come on, what the hell is that about? I don't think I should live my life based on the way some guy looked at me years ago. It really has no baring on my life. Why would someone even bring that up, especially someone who professes to care about you? I think it's a deep seated form of manipulation. Letting me know that maybe I am only desirable to certain people but as a whole society will reject me. Well that's bullshit. Pardon the French.
Maybe I'm making a big deal out of nothing, but it just gelled for me like nothing else ever has, I saw the light, figuratively speaking.
So back to Blue Eyed Devil from Lisa Kleypas. It was an awesome book, nothing like my normal romance novels this one actually taught you something about relationships, it will force you to open your eyes about abuse and neglect, manipulation and how relationships seem great on the outside but suck royally on the inside. I don't think I need to tell you the gist of the novel, basically a woman gets trapped in a bad marriage, works her way out, and winds up with a man who will protect her no matter what. Take a look at it, give it a read and let me know if you see any similarities in your own life.
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